Help me. I'm lost.

Totally Random

- I think may crush ako sa sarili ko


- To my friend Lyra: Sana marinig kita kumanta ulit.


- Yung bilbil ko kaya ilang folds max ang kaya?


- *clicks on a picture of myself a year ago* I'm so pretttyyyyyy (inside and out)


- The best thing about Life is Love.


- 2: 14 on the clock. Diba kanta ng Rivermaya yan?


- If I could fly.... it would simply be amazing. :)


- I can imagine an animated version of myself flying around Global City


- Okay that was just freakin' weird.


- OMgulay my boss just caught me blogging.


- The most memorable time in my life thus far is my first 6 months as a regular employee in TW (previously WW).


- I am gonna be really really good at work and I'm going to let my office know about it.


- I see myself at the runway... then the image blurs and shows a future me, rich and fat (not too much), eating poporn in my mansion watching VSFS.


- I think I'm feeling really confident about myself.


- I still can't believe I hooked up with my current boyfriend. But still one of the hardest, but BEST decisions I've made in my life. I'm sticking with my decision.


- I'm palpitating. Thank you coffee for making me high.


- I want to take my clothes off NOW. Seriously.


- Sudden anger burst: PLEASE GO AWAY. I hate it when there are people behind/beside me when I'm blogging. PRIVACY PLEASE. #mebeingbratty


- I am obsessed with work and office life. Just obsessed.


What I avoid to think about as much as possible:


- What happens to my consciousness when I die?


- What happens to all my memories?


- What happens to my feelings? my self?


- Am I really thinking about this right now?


- Will I continue living?






- MINDF*CK.

The Seven Social Sins by Mahatma Ghandi

Wealth without work.
Pleasure without conscience.
Science without humanity.
Commerce without morality.
Knowledge without character.
Politics without principle.
Worship without sacrifice.


We are all guilty. Bow.

20 Films

A blog post I did on impulse in my Tumblr.
(Link: http://tiffanygo.tumblr.com/post/1242683952/20-films)

Don’t take too long to think about it. Twenty films you’ve seen that will always stick with you. List the first twenty you can recall in no more than twenty minutes.
1. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
2. Moulin Rouge
3. Edward Scissorhands
4. Sweeney Todd
5. Spirited Away
6. 10 Things I Hate About You
7. Love Actually
8. He’s Just Not That Into You
9. The Incredibles
10. Despicable Me
11. Tarzan
12. The Lord of the Rings
13. Amelie
14. The Pirates of the Caribbean
15. The Elephant Man
16. Mr. and Mrs. Smith
17. Transformers
18. Eagle Eye
19. Borat
20. Tropic Thunder


Realization: I am sooo weird. It was fun doing this though. I guess I discovered the way my thoughts shifted from one idea to another.

9 Thoughts About Myself

What a bad previous post. I putting this up now.



1. I have terrible mood swings. 
2. I am a lazy and selfish person.
3. I am never the same.
4. I have trouble managing my anger bursts but they are always short-lived.
5. My childhood was a bit twisted so I don't like reminiscing about it too much.
6. I am patient and determined when I'm sure.
7. I am a lover in all aspects.
8. I am a frustrated artist.
9. Sometimes I get attachment problems.

One Big Bad Word

PUTA.

gusto mo patayin sarili mo?

Let The Games Begin

Yes, I like watching people too. Sometimes I see things I'm not supposed to. Sometimes I see things even the people involved themselves do not see. Sometimes I laugh. Sometimes I get disappointed. Sometimes I know what's coming next. Most of the time I just keep my thoughts to myself. I am a very secretive person. So let the games begin. This is going to be so much fun.

How to Have a Lovely Day

1. Drink tea.

2. Wear something that makes you feel good.

3. Say please and thank you.

4. Tell somebody you love them.

5. Eat dessert first.

6. Watch the sunrise or sunset.

7. Wear perfume.

8. Smile (a lot!)

9. Read a book.

10. Cook or bake for someone else.

11. Wish others a lovely day.

12. Watch a good film.

13. Wish others a lovely day.

I got this from Tumblr. I don't know where it originated, but here's the link to that particular Tumblr post for those who are interested:

http://tiffanygo.tumblr.com/post/1147562410/how-to-have-a-lovely-day-i-love-this

And because I got so inspired by this post, I'm going to make my own list just like this!

Aizen is a Butterfly

Fly fly fly

On Reunions

The longer the time, the sweeter the reunion.

See "Hana to Akuma"

Waaaahhhh so cheezy I knoooow. I'm a sucker for cheezy reunions. 

I love this manga series. The story isn't all that new. There are a lot of non-original scenes, but I love it. It's pure romance and cuteness and it's all just so sweet. :)

A Dose of Sound

A little intro on what I'm about to start on:

Daily Dose of Sound will be my regular postings on songs that I like, love, or listen to all the time. I might include some old-fashioned (but sensible) reflections, comments, ideas, reactions, memories... practically anything the song reminds me off. All because I'm such a music-lover and I have this persistent urge to always convert my thoughts into words. Knowing me, it's not exactly going to be a daily thing but you get the idea. I'm feeling kind of excited. I think this is going to be real fun. 

(Source will always be posted at the end of the lyrics.)

"The One That Got Away"

by Katy Perry

Summer after high school when we first met
We make-out in your Mustang to Radiohead
And on my 18th Birthday
We got matching tattoos

Used to steal your parents' liquor
And climb to the roof
Talk about our future
Like we had a clue
Never planned that one day
I'd be losing you

In another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

I was June and you were my Johnny Cash
Never one without the other We made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you
I put those records on (whoa)

Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you downtown singing the Blues
It's time to face the music
I'm no longer your muse

But in another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The one(X3)
The one that got away

Bridge:
All this money can't buy me a time machine (No)
Can't replace you with a million rings (No)
I shoulda told you what you meant to me (Whoa)
Cause now I pay the price

In another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The one(X3)

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

Link: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/k/katy_perry/the_one_that_got_away.html

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I think this might by my favorite song in Katy Perry's new album, "Teenage Dream". Personally I think it's a really great one (the album), probably also why she managed to top the charts for the first time. I told myself that I would only buy the CD if I liked ALL the songs in the album. Sadly, this one didn't quite make it. But it would definitely be a good contender. I really love it. It's actually still not impossible for me to buy it in the future if I had some extra cash.

I think the song is just all about a missed chance: A chance to tell someone he is appreciated. A chance to fight for your relationship. A chance to be honest and faithful. A chance to be the happiest person with someone really special. It's a really sad and regretful song...also reminds me how much I hate regretting about anything.

A Very Confusing Conversation

I was supposed to go to DLSU with some of my officemates today, and my boyfriend told me that the others were telling him that we would be leaving the office at a later time. So I asked my friend RC if we would be leaving later than the scheduled time. The conversation went as follows: 


Go[5:49 PM]:
cordowbs
kmsta?
mammove tayo? 
Cordova[5:50 PM]:
uu ataaa?
baka kami
Go[5:50 PM]:
ah ok
mga wat time?
Cordova[5:52 PM]:
lilipat?
hindi naun
Go[5:52 PM]:
weehhh?
promise?
o nlloko mo nnmn ako?
hahahah
Cordova[5:54 PM]:
seryosoooo
hindi pa naun
tas palang naun
wala pa new hire nila
Go[5:54 PM]:
huh
d ko gets
okay
natatawako
di tayo nagkakaintindihan
Cordova[5:55 PM]:
HA?


Did you see it? The source of the confusion is just somewhere in the middle. HAHAHA

Angsty Pimple

I was feeling sing-song happy listening to Katy Perry's "The One That Got Away" thinking about my boyfriend and I SUDDENLY catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror. and I freaked out. I really did. This morning I was just telling myself that I'd be changing the brand of day/night creams and facial wash I was using ASAP. I am definitely not going to use those stupid ***** creams tonight and EVER AGAIN. When I started having pimples I thought it was part of the normal cleaning-my-skin process. But then it never stopped. There was NO day ever since I started using that line that I didn't have at least one big pimple, or many small pimples on my forehead. A few minutes ago I just saw a few whiteheads joining the fray. THAT IS ONE BIG F*CK. IT'S BUULLLLSHIIIIIIT. I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS. My forehead is f*cking gross. It's SO F*CKING GROSSSSSSS. I'm feeling SO SO SO PISSED AND ANGRY $&()!*$)!@*(#)!@*#_!@(#!@_# GAAHHHHHHH!!!!!! I know it's sort of my fault that my skin is not the way it used to be: clean and smooth. just because I wasn't the type to have a long nighttime regimen for my face. BUT I'M SURE those stupid creams gave me 3 pimple SCARS, and MANY MORE STUPID SCARS ON MY FACE. GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I DON'T CARE I AM DEFINITELY STEALING MY CREDIT CARD FROM MY SISTER AND USING IT TOMORROW TO SHOP FOR SO MANY F*CKING FACIAL CARE PRODUCTS AND I DON'T CARE HOW EXPENSIVE THEY ARE.

10 Different People

1
Dear sir, I really really look up to you. I think that I'd like to be a person like you someday. I know I can't be exactly like you, but to some extent I'd like to give out a similar kind of aura. I used to be scared of you before I realized that it was because I had too much respect for you. Thank you for watching out for me. Thank you for recognizing my potential and continuing to inspire me to keep a positive attitude and do the best in everything. Someday, I know I can be a person you will be proud of.


2. 
Missie, you have such a long way to go. I can't be there for you all the way but I will try my best to be a good 'me' to you. It's really sad because I know that in the future, there will be problems you would have to face. I hope you will be strong enough for that and you can be the best person you can ever be. I love you so much! 


3
Despite everything that everyone has said. I believe you and I sincerely believe that you are a good person. I know you have been honest with me and I trust you. I trust you won't break me. And I promise I'll try my best to be a better person that I used to be so please try to do the same. I love you so much too! 


4
Sadly, I guess I was mistaken about you. I thought you were better. And then I heard all sorts of things that confirmed the kind of person you were. I know you're still a good person but I guess now I'm sure you're not the type I can be really close friends with.


5
Hey hey hey! Why is it that suddenly I can see you everywhere? Don't get me wrong. This doesn't mean that I'm having second thoughts. Maybe it's just weird because the thing I was waiting for is suddenly happening and I guess I didn't know how I would feel about it until now. Either way, I'm really sincerely happy for you even though some people probably won't believe me. It's sad that we lost some friendships along the way.


6
I know that you are very conceited and very irrational. If I was the kind of person I was at least 2 years ago, you have no idea how things would have turned out. Thank God I remembered that I was born a good child with good breeding. I will stretch my patience for you because I know that I can do it better than you and because I know that your life isn't really doing great right now. But please, whatever has happened to your life in the past is not an excuse to act the way you are doing right now. Please be mature.


7
From what has happened so far, I think I can trust you. You're really a jerk but it's good because you know that. It saves me the time of telling you that you can be such an asshole sometimes. We get along really well together so I'm happy I found a friend like you who won't misunderstand me.


8
Be honest to yourself. Stop getting angry easily and be more mature. 


9
You might think that it's kind of weird that we're talking more that we used to before. I guess I'm just guilty of saving a friendship I thought lost. I'm happy it wasn't and I'm happier we're back to the way we used to. Please stop smoking, you're too thin already. 


10
Wag mag mag-maldita at mag-maganda dahil mukha kang katulong. Tandaan, ang maganda, pag pangit ugali, pangit parin. Ang panget, pag pangit ugali, mas pangit sa nauna. Subukan mo kasi magpakabait. Subukan mo lang. kasi kadiri ka. baka-sakaling magmukha kang tao ulit. You people are everywhere!  (Whew! That felt great! Bad but I had to, just this once, ayaw ako tantanan eh. Ilang taon na ba?)




Grand finale, eh?

First Generation Jejemon

First blog entry in my life: May 14, 2006
I've been a blogger for more than 4 years now!! woooow :) I guess I'm a bit surprised. 


My first blog ever is posted below HAHAHA I'm sooo EWWWWW. So I guess I was able to make it to first generation jejemon. My first blog entry was posted before I entered college. Ang arte ko arte ko na para pa kong bata. so embarassing! anyway it's just a short blog entry but to here's for the laughs. :)


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Yay!!! dagdag ulet!! uhm...andun na cla sa PoLaroiD kow :) pntahan nyo nalang dun sa reviewers...tntmad na ko magtyp eh..hahaha.. scan nalang!!  English and Filipino un ah..uhm..bahala na keo magedit..mshado ata xa malaki eh...d ko na naayos kc rami pa ko gngwa <--tamaritis--> hahah.. ingats! have a good day!!
--->> tiPaY 




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Short, I know, I was 17 years old then but OMG! HAHAHAH I can't stop laughing. I am soooo gross! =))))))

The Interview

The ultimate interview with my 3 bestfriends.


24 hours to live. What will you do? (assuming you're a virgin)

1: Start, kakausapin ko mom ko, yayakapin ko siya ng mahigpit at sasabihin kong love na love ko siya. pati si dad, at sasabihin kong ayusin niya buhay niya. tatawagan ko close friends ko and say my goodbyes plus hear my eulogy. and finally, idadrag ko crush ko at isesexy time ko sa car on the way to a place na may sky diving,

2: I'm going to have sex in a plane on the way to Rome and then I'm going to tour the place and call all my friends.

3: Una sa lahat, aayusin ko ang aking papeles, then emo moment with family and friends. I'll confess to my ultimate crush then spend my last breathing moments in a comedy bar.

4: I'll post a long blog entry with messages to the special people in my life. I'll call the most special people in my life. I'll spend 70% of my time telling my family how much I love then and spend the remaining 30% with my current boyfriend, if any. I want to spend my last few hours with him hugging me.


If you were to marry someone right now, as in right now, with no thoughts as to whatever yung bawal, who is that person and why?

1: Si J kasi he is who he is and we get along plus may plano siya sa buhay.


2: Si L kasi i think we're going to be a good team.


3: Si E kasi kahit hindi siya dream guy ko on paper, siya yung type of guy na alam mong tama sayo.


4: Si J kasi if not i can't think of anyone else. 


Hook up with a hot nice girl? or a lame-ass dirty guy? Why? (dirty: madumi. hook up: sex)



1: Sorry hot nice girl nalang ako, kasi dirty...?


2: I'm sorry i prefer dicks.


3: No girls for me.


4: Hot nice girl nalang kasi i don't want to have sex with someone dirty.


Who was your dream prom date (na realistic)?



1: Si R kasi feeling ko he's a fun guy na aalagaan niya girl niya. (at that time)


2: Si E. kasi full stop. yun na yun. haha


3: Si M kasi ultimate crush ko talaga siya noon.


4: Si A kasi nung nag time na yun nagenjoy ako pag kasama ko siya.


Kanino mo gusto makatuluyan ng isa't isa?



for 1: A, J, H/A


for 2: L, A, E


for 3: T, T, A


for 4: A, R, R

Sex before marriage or marriage before sex? Why?



1: Marriage befor sex. wala lang. kasi kahit anong sabihin mo, it's just the norm. Pwede magsexy time basta gusto ko V.


2: Marriage before sex. kasi pag tinanong ako ng guy gusto ko sagot ko virgin pa ko.


3: Ako okay lang, hindi naman siya requirement. okay lang naman na sex before marriage.

4: Ako wala akong preference. kasi naniniwala ako na di na ko virgin by then (marriage)


Sex for a hollywood star or wait for the one?



1: Wait for the one


2: Wait for the one


3: Wait for the one

4: Wait for the one

If you can paint the world with one color what would it be?



1: yellow


2: yellow


3: green


4: yellow


Name one thing that bothers you about everyone.



for 1: di ka masyado umalis palagi, no parties, not updated with her life


for 2: di ako comfy sakanila, i feel that she's bothered with me about something, dati nabbotther ako kasi mahangin magsalita si rheyza


for 3: late, malabo kausap, plastik


for 4: too busy, plastik, no time for bff


French kiss: how do you imagine your first? how was your first?



1: with someone i'm super into.


2: wet and weird


3: wet and funny


4: awkward but fun


Animal you want to be reincarnated in.



1: Puppy dog kasi gusto ko pinepet ako ng mga tao


2: Bird I want to travel


3: Bunny para cute basta hindi baboy at ipis


4: Ant para mareincarnate agad.

Would you try brazilian for a guy?



1: yes


2: yes


3: yes


4: yes




One night stand. Name three guys.1: G, M,  M, J


2: C, F, G


3: T, D, M

4: J, D, I

I'm Not Doing This in 10 Consecutive Days :)

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

Vanessa Carlton on Replay

So what do you do when you're faced with the extremes? Extreme happiness as well as its opposite. I've thought about a lot of things and I decided I'm going to put up with it. So everything is all different now because I've never felt this kind of satisfaction and happiness in my life. And in other times, I ask myself how in the world I got myself into this much pain and stress. More so, WHY I allow myself to go through all of it. It was through the many friends I talked to that I was only able to realize what I really felt about the whole thing.    


In the end, no matter how many advices you get everything still boils down to one single question: "Is this worth it?" and I say YES. Life continues. We act, we feel, we live. It is only until the happiness is outweighed by a heaviness of the heart should everything stop. Until then, I'd be more than willing to enjoy every minute of the passing moments. This is my life and I will make the most out of it. I will continue to make my own decisions and I will never regret any of them, as always. I will continue to love and support my wonderful family. I will continue to treasure the love between me and my amazing boyfriend. I will continue to share my happiness with my friends. I will continue to chase after my goals and harness my skills at work. And I will continue to be me and never forget who I am and how I am as a person. I love you, God, and thank you so much for blessing me with such a wonderful life. :) 


We should always be happy with the people we have in our lives. It's our greatest blessing. There are so very many things to smile about. Live life and be happy! :)




P.S. Just so you're wondering, I'm not sure about the relation between the title and the actual contents of the blog. I just wanted to say that "Nolita Fairytale" has been playing on repeat in my iTunes for some time now. It's an amazing song and I love it. :) It's my inspiration for this blog entry. hihi!

A Monday Post I Forgot to Finish

My boyfriend is such a flirt, seriously. I think he's really enjoying his time having a girlfriend who doesn't get angry each time he texts a girl. Hahahaha! My friends asked me if abuso na daw ba. I said "Nope! :)" (Hahahah may smile talaga)

These are one of things most of my girl friends and I disagree on. In my opinion, there are really some things that girls have to accept. Guy or girl, a flirt will always be a flirt. If you want to go into a relationship with someone like that, you can't expect that person to change just because you want them to. Life isn't a fairytale so we shouldn't keep thinking that Love conquers everything, even habits and attitudes. You have to learn how to make a guy honest with you. And being jealous over every girl is NOT the right way to do that. Guys have a tendency to act more rebellious the more strict you get or the more you make them feel you don't trust them. You have to accept the fact that going into a relationship with someone means that besides the usual disagreements, there are certain bothersome things (and people) that come together with that. It can be any of his bad habits (In my case his being such a flirt), or any of yours (same as his). It can be  anyone from who flirts back with you or your boyfriend. All you have to do is realize that it's normal for couples to have some disagreements from time to time. You have to trust each other to be responsible with your decisions. Never expect. You can hope that he changes by himself but let him do the forcing. If he wants to do that for you, he has to realize that for himself. But of course, when you think you've really stretched your patience to the fullest and he's still being an ass, the only solution is to leave the guy. Yun lang yun.

Trust is the foundation of all relationships. And I'm proud to say that ours is well-built. My boyfriend and I are very honest with each other. Well, I guess there might be some things he's hiding from me, but I trust him enough to let him decide which things are important and which are not. And he's told me a lot of things he has done that any other shallow girl would be screaming and fretting about. I appreciate his honesty very much. His friends tell me he wasn't like that before and that he's been extra sweet with me, and that's such a morale booster. When it comes to relationships, I try to make the best decisions as much as I can. But PMS will always be my mortal enemy. It's a good thing he's been patient with me too. Hindi daw niya ko natitiis eh. suuuus. hahahaha.

I Call It Irony

I've been listening to this song in the radio for a couple of times and I just got around to downloading it and reading the lyrics. And you know what I just realized? If this song had been released around 4 months ago, i probably would have gotten it playing in my iPod non-stop for days. And it's really ironic because the song isn't the type to cheer you up or make you feel better. Thing is it's kind of rare for me to find one particular song that fit my life exactly the same at a particular time. And this one hits the bulls eye. Four months ago that is.

I know this sounds really unfair, and I don't know if you'll eventually get to read this entry someday. But thinking back, the happenings last March and April make me feel bad when I think about it.  I've never been a fan of bad breakups, but I can't confidently say that ours was peaceful. If I said sorry, I'd be such an ass. So I won't. Normally, I'd be cool with talking to you just like how I talk to your friends, but I think a little space between us would be the best right now. I heard that you're getting close with your old friend again. I just hope you're happy with her and she takes care of you. Don't rush too fast into things because you might do something you'll eventually regret. Always think about your actions before you do anything. I know you're good at that. I hope she doesn't spoil you too because you are seriously spoiled already. You need to grow! :) and that wasn't an insult. Okay I change my mind. I'm going to say sorry anyway, just for being inconsiderate. That was my biggest fault no matter how I look at things. Someday, I know we're going to be friends again. Normal friends who wouldn't think about things that can ruin the friendship. I think we're both happy with our lives right now. I don't know when we'll be able to see each other personally, or even talk with each other through the phone. That time will come someday and we'll both be smiling when that happens. :)

"Di Lang Ikaw"

by Juris

Pansin mo ba ang pagbabago?
Di matitigan ang iyong mga mata
Tila di na nananabik
Sa iyong yakap at halik
Sana'y malaman mo
Hindi sinasadya
Kung ang nais ko ay maging Malaya
Chorus:
Di lang ikaw
Di lang ikaw ang nahihirapan
Damdamin ko rin ay naguguluhan
Di lang ikaw
Di lang ikaw ang nababahala
Bulong ng isip wag kang pakawalan
Ngunit puso ko ay kailangan kang iwan

Pansin mo ba ang nararamdaman
Di na tayo magkaintindihan
Tila hindi na maibabalik
Tamis ng yakap at halik
Maaring tama ka lumalamig ang pagsinta
Sana'y malaman mong di ko sinasadya

Di hahayaang habang buhay kang saktan
Di sasayangin ang iyong panahon
Ikaw ay magiging Masaya
Sa yakap at sa piling ng iba

The Need to be Drugged

Drug me. I need to be high.

I can still imagine myself giving away my 2 packs of cigarettes to my officemate.

Yes. It's still a bad habit I need to break. I'll have to put up with drinking a mug of coffee for now.

Confessions of a Frustrated Shopaholic

Today marks the day when I have finally let go of my role as a credit card holder. For the first time in 7 years, my wallet is void of any credit cards. My last one I surrendered to my sister just around 2 hours ago. I even asked her to cut it to pieces for me. Surprisingly, I'm pretty cool with it. I do realize that since I've started working already, there should be a certain sense of responsibility that comes with my new role; i.e. how i spend my time and money. Therefore, I know that letting go of the root of all financial evil was the right thing to do for someone like me who has just started working. For a girl who is greatly attracted by floral dresses, wedge shoes, leather bags, and other girly 'shoppables', it was terribly hard for me not to go into shopping frenzy as soon as I started earning money. It was so hard that I went through half of that frenzy anyway. HAHA. And because I so stupidly let go of my self-control, I learned how to save money the hard way. Don't ask how. I'm pretty sure that would be obvious by now. For about two months, I'm going to have to say goodbye to all shopping I could have had. Now it's time to go into desperate measures to save money. LOL

So..

Tomorrow marks the first day of a new lifestyle. Besides me not spending too much on many useless things, I have decided to change some parts of daily routine. First of all, no more late night bonding time with my laptop. I need to sleep early so I can wake up early the day after. Everyday, I would have to leave home by 6 to 7pm max. I must not extend at work unless I really need to. This means that I would have to leave the office by 5pm every day, which is a really good thing since it means I wouldn't have to eat dinner before going home. Instead of eating a lot during lunch and dinner, I'm going to take a lot of small snacks to lost a bit of weight. When I was thinking about this, the only thing that held me back was the fact that I was a nighttime person, not a morning person. I work better and my brain functions well at night. So I decided to give this new routine a try first, see how long I'll last before breaking my own rules like I usually do. Goodluck to me!

First Post

So I published this post in my Tumblr account describing my day so far last Friday. This was how I got the idea to make a public blogspot. The title links directly back to my Tumblr. :)

It’s Such a Crappy Day Today

No Kidding. I totally woke up on the wrong side of bed. I was having a sour mood this morning that I lashed out on my sister and my dad and ended up feeling bad about it afterwards. Now my head hurts even after I took a tablet of Ibuprofen. It’s such a crappy day. SUCH a CRAPPY day. J says it’s because I keep on using the internet late at night instead of sleeping early. Well yeah, I did. I was online till 1 AM. After that I laid down on my bed for God knows how many more hours reading “Altar of Eden” with the lights off (I had a lamplight on my chest). So I figured, he’s probably right. It’s the only reason my head is being such an ass right now. Normally, I’d make an effort to cheer myself up, to lighten my mood just so I’d stop making my day any worse than it is. But frankly I’m really not in the mood. So then I decided to do some blogging. It usually gives me a sense of satisfaction. A sense of satisfaction usually precedes a little bit of added happiness. I was trying to check my dashboard and it was like WWW decided to pick on me. The internet here at the office is so CRAPPY! So what I’m doing right now is typing away in a Notepad to try and improve my mood for a little bit. I’m doing all the blogging here just so I won’t waste too much time online. I’ll just make my new blog then post. It’s already really strict here in the office on internet use.


So I remembered just a few hours ago my friend Joey was telling me about his blogspot and asked me if I had one since I was a blogger too. I told him that I had a few blogs here and there. But a public site in blogspot or wordpress, No I didn’t have one and that nowadays I have my Tumblr for my blogs. BUT but but. He does have a good point. I’ve been too lazy to make one, but now I will. And I have my crappy day to thank for that. Thank you and I hate you. Hello Blogspot! :)