A Monday Post I Forgot to Finish

My boyfriend is such a flirt, seriously. I think he's really enjoying his time having a girlfriend who doesn't get angry each time he texts a girl. Hahahaha! My friends asked me if abuso na daw ba. I said "Nope! :)" (Hahahah may smile talaga)

These are one of things most of my girl friends and I disagree on. In my opinion, there are really some things that girls have to accept. Guy or girl, a flirt will always be a flirt. If you want to go into a relationship with someone like that, you can't expect that person to change just because you want them to. Life isn't a fairytale so we shouldn't keep thinking that Love conquers everything, even habits and attitudes. You have to learn how to make a guy honest with you. And being jealous over every girl is NOT the right way to do that. Guys have a tendency to act more rebellious the more strict you get or the more you make them feel you don't trust them. You have to accept the fact that going into a relationship with someone means that besides the usual disagreements, there are certain bothersome things (and people) that come together with that. It can be any of his bad habits (In my case his being such a flirt), or any of yours (same as his). It can be  anyone from who flirts back with you or your boyfriend. All you have to do is realize that it's normal for couples to have some disagreements from time to time. You have to trust each other to be responsible with your decisions. Never expect. You can hope that he changes by himself but let him do the forcing. If he wants to do that for you, he has to realize that for himself. But of course, when you think you've really stretched your patience to the fullest and he's still being an ass, the only solution is to leave the guy. Yun lang yun.

Trust is the foundation of all relationships. And I'm proud to say that ours is well-built. My boyfriend and I are very honest with each other. Well, I guess there might be some things he's hiding from me, but I trust him enough to let him decide which things are important and which are not. And he's told me a lot of things he has done that any other shallow girl would be screaming and fretting about. I appreciate his honesty very much. His friends tell me he wasn't like that before and that he's been extra sweet with me, and that's such a morale booster. When it comes to relationships, I try to make the best decisions as much as I can. But PMS will always be my mortal enemy. It's a good thing he's been patient with me too. Hindi daw niya ko natitiis eh. suuuus. hahahaha.

I Call It Irony

I've been listening to this song in the radio for a couple of times and I just got around to downloading it and reading the lyrics. And you know what I just realized? If this song had been released around 4 months ago, i probably would have gotten it playing in my iPod non-stop for days. And it's really ironic because the song isn't the type to cheer you up or make you feel better. Thing is it's kind of rare for me to find one particular song that fit my life exactly the same at a particular time. And this one hits the bulls eye. Four months ago that is.

I know this sounds really unfair, and I don't know if you'll eventually get to read this entry someday. But thinking back, the happenings last March and April make me feel bad when I think about it.  I've never been a fan of bad breakups, but I can't confidently say that ours was peaceful. If I said sorry, I'd be such an ass. So I won't. Normally, I'd be cool with talking to you just like how I talk to your friends, but I think a little space between us would be the best right now. I heard that you're getting close with your old friend again. I just hope you're happy with her and she takes care of you. Don't rush too fast into things because you might do something you'll eventually regret. Always think about your actions before you do anything. I know you're good at that. I hope she doesn't spoil you too because you are seriously spoiled already. You need to grow! :) and that wasn't an insult. Okay I change my mind. I'm going to say sorry anyway, just for being inconsiderate. That was my biggest fault no matter how I look at things. Someday, I know we're going to be friends again. Normal friends who wouldn't think about things that can ruin the friendship. I think we're both happy with our lives right now. I don't know when we'll be able to see each other personally, or even talk with each other through the phone. That time will come someday and we'll both be smiling when that happens. :)

"Di Lang Ikaw"

by Juris

Pansin mo ba ang pagbabago?
Di matitigan ang iyong mga mata
Tila di na nananabik
Sa iyong yakap at halik
Sana'y malaman mo
Hindi sinasadya
Kung ang nais ko ay maging Malaya
Chorus:
Di lang ikaw
Di lang ikaw ang nahihirapan
Damdamin ko rin ay naguguluhan
Di lang ikaw
Di lang ikaw ang nababahala
Bulong ng isip wag kang pakawalan
Ngunit puso ko ay kailangan kang iwan

Pansin mo ba ang nararamdaman
Di na tayo magkaintindihan
Tila hindi na maibabalik
Tamis ng yakap at halik
Maaring tama ka lumalamig ang pagsinta
Sana'y malaman mong di ko sinasadya

Di hahayaang habang buhay kang saktan
Di sasayangin ang iyong panahon
Ikaw ay magiging Masaya
Sa yakap at sa piling ng iba

The Need to be Drugged

Drug me. I need to be high.

I can still imagine myself giving away my 2 packs of cigarettes to my officemate.

Yes. It's still a bad habit I need to break. I'll have to put up with drinking a mug of coffee for now.

Confessions of a Frustrated Shopaholic

Today marks the day when I have finally let go of my role as a credit card holder. For the first time in 7 years, my wallet is void of any credit cards. My last one I surrendered to my sister just around 2 hours ago. I even asked her to cut it to pieces for me. Surprisingly, I'm pretty cool with it. I do realize that since I've started working already, there should be a certain sense of responsibility that comes with my new role; i.e. how i spend my time and money. Therefore, I know that letting go of the root of all financial evil was the right thing to do for someone like me who has just started working. For a girl who is greatly attracted by floral dresses, wedge shoes, leather bags, and other girly 'shoppables', it was terribly hard for me not to go into shopping frenzy as soon as I started earning money. It was so hard that I went through half of that frenzy anyway. HAHA. And because I so stupidly let go of my self-control, I learned how to save money the hard way. Don't ask how. I'm pretty sure that would be obvious by now. For about two months, I'm going to have to say goodbye to all shopping I could have had. Now it's time to go into desperate measures to save money. LOL

So..

Tomorrow marks the first day of a new lifestyle. Besides me not spending too much on many useless things, I have decided to change some parts of daily routine. First of all, no more late night bonding time with my laptop. I need to sleep early so I can wake up early the day after. Everyday, I would have to leave home by 6 to 7pm max. I must not extend at work unless I really need to. This means that I would have to leave the office by 5pm every day, which is a really good thing since it means I wouldn't have to eat dinner before going home. Instead of eating a lot during lunch and dinner, I'm going to take a lot of small snacks to lost a bit of weight. When I was thinking about this, the only thing that held me back was the fact that I was a nighttime person, not a morning person. I work better and my brain functions well at night. So I decided to give this new routine a try first, see how long I'll last before breaking my own rules like I usually do. Goodluck to me!

First Post

So I published this post in my Tumblr account describing my day so far last Friday. This was how I got the idea to make a public blogspot. The title links directly back to my Tumblr. :)

It’s Such a Crappy Day Today

No Kidding. I totally woke up on the wrong side of bed. I was having a sour mood this morning that I lashed out on my sister and my dad and ended up feeling bad about it afterwards. Now my head hurts even after I took a tablet of Ibuprofen. It’s such a crappy day. SUCH a CRAPPY day. J says it’s because I keep on using the internet late at night instead of sleeping early. Well yeah, I did. I was online till 1 AM. After that I laid down on my bed for God knows how many more hours reading “Altar of Eden” with the lights off (I had a lamplight on my chest). So I figured, he’s probably right. It’s the only reason my head is being such an ass right now. Normally, I’d make an effort to cheer myself up, to lighten my mood just so I’d stop making my day any worse than it is. But frankly I’m really not in the mood. So then I decided to do some blogging. It usually gives me a sense of satisfaction. A sense of satisfaction usually precedes a little bit of added happiness. I was trying to check my dashboard and it was like WWW decided to pick on me. The internet here at the office is so CRAPPY! So what I’m doing right now is typing away in a Notepad to try and improve my mood for a little bit. I’m doing all the blogging here just so I won’t waste too much time online. I’ll just make my new blog then post. It’s already really strict here in the office on internet use.


So I remembered just a few hours ago my friend Joey was telling me about his blogspot and asked me if I had one since I was a blogger too. I told him that I had a few blogs here and there. But a public site in blogspot or wordpress, No I didn’t have one and that nowadays I have my Tumblr for my blogs. BUT but but. He does have a good point. I’ve been too lazy to make one, but now I will. And I have my crappy day to thank for that. Thank you and I hate you. Hello Blogspot! :)