On First Love
"maybe your first love is the one that sticks with you because it's the only person who will ever receive all of you. after that, you learn better. but, most of all, no matter what, a piece of you forever remains left behind in the heart of the one you loved - a piece no future lover could ever get, no matter what. that piece holds innocence, the belief that love really can last forever. it holds friendship and pain, trial and error, that one kiss you'll never forget, and that night under the stars you can never get back. it holds youth and everything you thought love would be, everything that was proven wrong."
1
Dear sir, I really really look up to you. I think that I'd like to be a person like you someday. I know I can't be exactly like you, but to some extent I'd like to give out a similar kind of aura. I used to be scared of you before I realized that it was because I had too much respect for you. Thank you for watching out for me. Thank you for recognizing my potential and continuing to inspire me to keep a positive attitude and do the best in everything. Someday, I know I can be a person you will be proud of.
2.
Missie, you have such a long way to go. I can't be there for you all the way but I will try my best to be a good 'me' to you. It's really sad because I know that in the future, there will be problems you would have to face. I hope you will be strong enough for that and you can be the best person you can ever be. I love you so much!
3
Despite everything that everyone has said. I believe you and I sincerely believe that you are a good person. I know you have been honest with me and I trust you. I trust you won't break me. And I promise I'll try my best to be a better person that I used to be so please try to do the same. I love you so much too!
4
Sadly, I guess I was mistaken about you. I thought you were better. And then I heard all sorts of things that confirmed the kind of person you were. I know you're still a good person but I guess now I'm sure you're not the type I can be really close friends with.
5
Hey hey hey! Why is it that suddenly I can see you everywhere? Don't get me wrong. This doesn't mean that I'm having second thoughts. Maybe it's just weird because the thing I was waiting for is suddenly happening and I guess I didn't know how I would feel about it until now. Either way, I'm really sincerely happy for you even though some people probably won't believe me. It's sad that we lost some friendships along the way.
6
I know that you are very conceited and very irrational. If I was the kind of person I was at least 2 years ago, you have no idea how things would have turned out. Thank God I remembered that I was born a good child with good breeding. I will stretch my patience for you because I know that I can do it better than you and because I know that your life isn't really doing great right now. But please, whatever has happened to your life in the past is not an excuse to act the way you are doing right now. Please be mature.
7
From what has happened so far, I think I can trust you. You're really a jerk but it's good because you know that. It saves me the time of telling you that you can be such an asshole sometimes. We get along really well together so I'm happy I found a friend like you who won't misunderstand me.
8
Be honest to yourself. Stop getting angry easily and be more mature.
9
You might think that it's kind of weird that we're talking more that we used to before. I guess I'm just guilty of saving a friendship I thought lost. I'm happy it wasn't and I'm happier we're back to the way we used to. Please stop smoking, you're too thin already.
10
Wag mag mag-maldita at mag-maganda dahil mukha kang katulong. Tandaan, ang maganda, pag pangit ugali, pangit parin. Ang panget, pag pangit ugali, mas pangit sa nauna. Subukan mo kasi magpakabait. Subukan mo lang. kasi kadiri ka. baka-sakaling magmukha kang tao ulit. You people are everywhere! (Whew! That felt great! Bad but I had to, just this once, ayaw ako tantanan eh. Ilang taon na ba?)
Grand finale, eh?
The ultimate interview with my 3 bestfriends.
24 hours to live. What will you do? (assuming you're a virgin)
1: Start, kakausapin ko mom ko, yayakapin ko siya ng mahigpit at sasabihin kong love na love ko siya. pati si dad, at sasabihin kong ayusin niya buhay niya. tatawagan ko close friends ko and say my goodbyes plus hear my eulogy. and finally, idadrag ko crush ko at isesexy time ko sa car on the way to a place na may sky diving,
2: I'm going to have sex in a plane on the way to Rome and then I'm going to tour the place and call all my friends.
3: Una sa lahat, aayusin ko ang aking papeles, then emo moment with family and friends. I'll confess to my ultimate crush then spend my last breathing moments in a comedy bar.
4: I'll post a long blog entry with messages to the special people in my life. I'll call the most special people in my life. I'll spend 70% of my time telling my family how much I love then and spend the remaining 30% with my current boyfriend, if any. I want to spend my last few hours with him hugging me.
If you were to marry someone right now, as in right now, with no thoughts as to whatever yung bawal, who is that person and why?
1: Si J kasi he is who he is and we get along plus may plano siya sa buhay.
2: Si L kasi i think we're going to be a good team.
3: Si E kasi kahit hindi siya dream guy ko on paper, siya yung type of guy na alam mong tama sayo.
4: Si J kasi if not i can't think of anyone else.
Hook up with a hot nice girl? or a lame-ass dirty guy? Why? (dirty: madumi. hook up: sex)
1: Sorry hot nice girl nalang ako, kasi dirty...?
2: I'm sorry i prefer dicks.
3: No girls for me.
4: Hot nice girl nalang kasi i don't want to have sex with someone dirty.
Who was your dream prom date (na realistic)?
1: Si R kasi feeling ko he's a fun guy na aalagaan niya girl niya. (at that time)
2: Si E. kasi full stop. yun na yun. haha
3: Si M kasi ultimate crush ko talaga siya noon.
4: Si A kasi nung nag time na yun nagenjoy ako pag kasama ko siya.
Kanino mo gusto makatuluyan ng isa't isa?
for 1: A, J, H/A
for 2: L, A, E
for 3: T, T, A
for 4: A, R, R
Sex before marriage or marriage before sex? Why?
1: Marriage befor sex. wala lang. kasi kahit anong sabihin mo, it's just the norm. Pwede magsexy time basta gusto ko V.
2: Marriage before sex. kasi pag tinanong ako ng guy gusto ko sagot ko virgin pa ko.
3: Ako okay lang, hindi naman siya requirement. okay lang naman na sex before marriage.
4: Ako wala akong preference. kasi naniniwala ako na di na ko virgin by then (marriage)
Sex for a hollywood star or wait for the one?
1: Wait for the one
2: Wait for the one
3: Wait for the one
4: Wait for the one
If you can paint the world with one color what would it be?
1: yellow
2: yellow
3: green
4: yellow
Name one thing that bothers you about everyone.
for 1: di ka masyado umalis palagi, no parties, not updated with her life
for 2: di ako comfy sakanila, i feel that she's bothered with me about something, dati nabbotther ako kasi mahangin magsalita si rheyza
for 3: late, malabo kausap, plastik
for 4: too busy, plastik, no time for bff
French kiss: how do you imagine your first? how was your first?
1: with someone i'm super into.
2: wet and weird
3: wet and funny
4: awkward but fun
Animal you want to be reincarnated in.
1: Puppy dog kasi gusto ko pinepet ako ng mga tao
2: Bird I want to travel
3: Bunny para cute basta hindi baboy at ipis
4: Ant para mareincarnate agad.
Would you try brazilian for a guy?
1: yes
2: yes
3: yes
4: yes
One night stand. Name three guys.1: G, M, M, J
2: C, F, G
3: T, D, M
4: J, D, I
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.
So what do you do when you're faced with the extremes? Extreme happiness as well as its opposite. I've thought about a lot of things and I decided I'm going to put up with it. So everything is all different now because I've never felt this kind of satisfaction and happiness in my life. And in other times, I ask myself how in the world I got myself into this much pain and stress. More so, WHY I allow myself to go through all of it. It was through the many friends I talked to that I was only able to realize what I really felt about the whole thing.
In the end, no matter how many advices you get everything still boils down to one single question: "Is this worth it?" and I say YES. Life continues. We act, we feel, we live. It is only until the happiness is outweighed by a heaviness of the heart should everything stop. Until then, I'd be more than willing to enjoy every minute of the passing moments. This is my life and I will make the most out of it. I will continue to make my own decisions and I will never regret any of them, as always. I will continue to love and support my wonderful family. I will continue to treasure the love between me and my amazing boyfriend. I will continue to share my happiness with my friends. I will continue to chase after my goals and harness my skills at work. And I will continue to be me and never forget who I am and how I am as a person. I love you, God, and thank you so much for blessing me with such a wonderful life. :)
We should always be happy with the people we have in our lives. It's our greatest blessing. There are so very many things to smile about. Live life and be happy! :)
P.S. Just so you're wondering, I'm not sure about the relation between the title and the actual contents of the blog. I just wanted to say that "Nolita Fairytale" has been playing on repeat in my iTunes for some time now. It's an amazing song and I love it. :) It's my inspiration for this blog entry. hihi!
English and Filipino un ah..uhm..bahala na keo magedit..mshado ata xa malaki eh...d ko na naayos kc rami pa ko gngwa <--tamaritis--> 
hahah.. ingats! have a good day!!
